Internet home of music artist/project "conscientious nihilism". Listen on Bandcamp. I'm going to use this blog to post about my musical creations under...
If you read my last post about being unhinged, here's an update. I feel re-hinged. I am not in total fucked up despair mode anymore. I did spend the last two days barely able to get out of bed without feeling super tired and with a massive headache, but I survive and I am more baseline now, at least. Things are still rough, I'm still recovering from whatever physical ailment that was (sleep…
Oh boy, here I go being a whiny little baby again! Don't read this. I don't know why I'm writing it or posting it. Ugh. Some days I fucking hate myself. Some days, such as today, I wake up and I just feel frustrated and annoyed at everything . I have good reason to be frustrated and annoyed about certain things. But most days I can, like, be more or less normal? Today is not one of those days. I…
Listen and purchase at pinkhydrangea's bandcamp here The artist pinkhydrangea has released a new album, and since I was absolutely in love with their last album, Ethereal K-Pop Noise, which you can read about if you click here , I was hopeful that this one would be good too. It's good! Ethereal K-Pop Noise (henceforth EKPN) hit me so hard in just the right place at just the right time that I…
At one point I intended to use this blog to write or rant about political situations or the state of the world, things governments were doing, and the like. I even did, once, a little bit ago. But man, things have been increasingly and incredibly more depressing and devastating and just downright horrible since then. I thought murdering citizens in the streets was bad enough, but somehow it keeps…
Link to the album here: Vast Echoes by Bingo Harry. I first came across this guy Ben through he and his wife's youtube channel, Ben and Emily, when they lived on what's called a "narrowboat" on the canals of England. I really liked watching the canal videos and seeing how they lived and all the cool stuff about living on the canals. They're fun and interesting videos and have sold me on the idea…
Listen to L'INVITÉ here. I was provided with a free download code for this album. Trying to review this album has shown to me that I don't really seem to have or know how to properly deploy the vocabulary to talk about music. My previous review was mostly about the vibes of the album, the imagery the crunchy distorted sounds conjured in my mind. L'INVITÉ is a harder nut for me to crack. I enjoy…
I love me some ice coffee. I rarely if ever drink hot beverages, so I don't drink hot coffee. But iced coffee? Hell yeah. Unfortunately for me, I am going through a bit of a rough patch financially and so this morning I didn't drink any coffee or any caffeine at all, and my god am I miserable. I have a decently bad headache, I feel like I have brain fog and can't concentrate on anything real, and…
Available in two places here at Echoveil records and here at Pink Hydrangea's page . I was provided a free download from Echoveil records. This album feels like deep healing. I often wonder what the fuck happened to me or is wrong with me to make me the way I am. It feels so lonely being a fucking weirdo sometimes, but then I listen to something like this and I think that if someone could make…
Politics is the action of and discussion about how a government is supposed to run things. It's deciding who is gonna go where, and what sort of actions they're gonna do. To be less vague, what I mean is politics is the elections, the writing of bills, the debating of whether this bill will bring the most benefit to the people or if we need to change it to make it give MORE benefit to the people.…
Every so often I get the itch to make some sort of music, or at least an auditory experience. I've dabbled in various genres and styles over the years, death metal mostly as a joke, electronic music semi-seriously (but poorly made), and a few years ago I began to experiment with ambient music, and in particular dark ambient and noise-adjacent experimental stuff. I had made deterioration , which is…