Do it for Love, or Don't Do it

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There is a point in life where some find out that continuing the struggle for outward possessions/things whether they be material or human, that feed the ego are tiring and truly do not hold the nectar we need for true human survival.
Do it for Love, or Don't Do it. 
Whatever it is you are doing, become aware of the Presence of the Almighty Love within you... Who am I? When I drop my body... who is there?
Do not praise me or say I am the best singer or the most beautiful or the most anything... I am not striving to be the best singer or the most beautiful.
I am striving to find God in my very breath, in every cell, and I desire every action to be for Love.. if you will.
To bring goodness.. to bring heart openings... to bring peace and joy.. to bring truth.
Do not praise me for these lofty goals either... for it is my hunger to connect to the thing that we can't physically see, that sustains us, that is our very life force, that is causing this ache within me.
This hunger, this ache... this yearing... is a gift that is teaching me to be aware of my   actions and thoughts and to surrender all inward to the energizing precious Love within me.
When I sing, I do it for this Love that lives within all of us.
That's all I can do, and it's the very best I can do.
Do it for Love, or Don't Do it.

It's truly been a journey to get to this point of my life and every step I have taken,
every hardship, every exhilarating performance, has been a part of my unfolding.
This is easy to write.
Putting this 'awareness' into action.... well that's the harder part.
And that's the journey, right?
That's the path today, right now, this minute.
The road.. not out there, in here, within each of us, now.
This is the real work for the exquisite inner rewards... of freedom.. of Love.

I've become way too miserable in 'me' and all the outward things that hold no lasting sustenance of happiness or peace.
The call inward to become one with the One is now my purpose.
In this I welcome the 'real work' in all that I do.
It's easy when I sing... it's sluggishly hard when I'm in the mundane mud.
It's easy in my meditation chair, it's luggingly hard when I'm tired and have to get up and going but just want to sit and stare.
It's easy when I feel good, it's painfully hard when my body hurts or when my thoughts are   insane.
If I look at this flower as it reaches peacefully toward the sun, drinks in the rain and pulls strength and nutrients from the earth, I can surrender into the peaceful place of knowing that I can do it to.
I can take deep breaths of peace when old habit patterns try to ensnare me again.
Or when I wake up with fears that blacken my much needed restful sleep,
  tieing their ropes around my innocent heart.
I can pray and cry out silently from the darkness of my soul for Love to help me.
I can exhale into surrender, I can trust... I can let go....
I can hug my pillow.
I can work to become aware and awake in every moment that I luckily find myself
  alive in...
I can continue to reach and open into the sun, into the Love
  into the beauty of us
    unfolding into God

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(c) Cee Cee James  ᥫ᭡.ִֶָ𓂃
     03/20/26