Clear Feeling.

Quotes of the Month:

“To feel all is to know all.” ~ Dorothy Day

“A woman in her power is sensual, not because of what she wears, but because of what she knows.” ~ Unknown

“Sensuality is about feeling and that’s the most sacred sense.” ~ Audre Lorde

“To be sensual is to be alive.” ~ bell hooks

“Eroticism is about presence, attention, and intention.” ~ Esther Perel

“The body says what words cannot.” ~ Martha Graham

SELF-INQUIRY EXERCISE:

Before you read, please take a moment and sit with this:

When was the last time you felt truly alive in your body? Not thinking about your body, not performing your body - but actually inhabiting it, feeling every nerve ending awake? Where were you? What were you doing? How did your senses feel? What did that aliveness taste, sound, smell like?

Now ask yourself: How often do I give myself permission to feel this way?

A few years ago I learned that I was something called “Clairsentient.” Prior to this and over the years of my life, I started to realize I seemed to feel things more deeply than most, feel things differently than most, definitely perceive things different than many, but I didn’t know that it had a name.

Growing up people called me sensitive. I had an ex, his name is Gee… still a close friend, who used to playfully tease me and call me Sensitive Sally. This kind of thing or commentary about “How I feel” things has always been a part of other people’s observations of me.

I have cried or been concerned for people when others have laughed when we were looking at the exact same thing. When the word Narcissist worked its way into popular culture as it is today, I watched so many rush in to raise their signs like it’s a badge of honor or a flag planted on the moon that said: “I’m an empath!” Usually, misusing the word in their discovery of, in relation to, or in response to how badly they have been treated by someone else and why they “attracted” and tolerated such “badness” for so long because: “I’m an Empath.” Or, to point out how much better they are than the other person, than other people. - I have never called myself this. And In general, I don’t like new and useless identities and labels to explain myself to myself, let alone to anyone else, so maybe that’s also why too. Besides being a woman, which I love to be, getting people to learn how to pronounce and understand both my first and last name, their meanings, their origins, and what they represent about my own identity has been more than enough for me.

But I too have always said and known, about myself, that I am usually the first to laugh and the first to cry in any given situation. And while I understand, resonate and relate to the idea of being an “Empath,” it is absolutely not something I call on or use to describe myself as part of my identity. Separately, but related and also… being empathetic or having empathy (two different things, btw), are things that I value, but that’s about as far as it gets with me. Most of it, honestly, feels like a given. Should be a given, as far as I’m concerned.

But when someone explained to me why I feel how I feel, why I sense things as I do, literally “see” things as I do, having nothing to do with how someone else treats me or how I treat them and told me about Clairsentience, it explained to me how I see. This was about sensory perception because, for me, I see through my feelings.

It explained to me why, for instance, me and five other people… colleagues or business associates… can walk into a meeting and they would come out describing how someone looked, whether they were fat or skinny, handsome/fine/hot/cute/pretty/or not, what they wore, or their hair cut and style and I would be over there trying to pinpoint someone (making sure we were speaking of the same person) by saying things like “The one who felt like…abc?” or “The one who seemed like…xyz??” I am usually describing essence and something felt when I describe my impression of a person or a place. Things that I can see or sense some other way first, with my five senses coming in secondary and so last in many cases. It’s always, How did this feel to me? What do I sense? What did I feel?… and this is not about emotion or their opinion of me, it is something else entirely.

I can usually feel something as soon as I walk into a room or any environment and stand there for a moment. Scanning it with some part of me I didn’t quite understand or like I’m tapping into an invisible forcefield.

Clairsentience explained to me why I can feel earthquakes (if I am in Los Angeles) before they come and why I have friends who know this about me and will call me and say “My dog is acting weird, do you sense an earthquake coming?” - This has literally happened to me several times.

It explains to me why me and my sister once walked out of a bodega on Greene Avenue in Bed Stuy Brooklyn and I, out of nowhere and looking up at a clear blue sky, said plainly like someone asked: “It’s going to pour raining.” I have no idea where this come from and so her and I just looked at one another in a curious way. It seemed absurd that this came out of my mouth at all and when no one, not even me, was asking, and also because the sky was blue. Then some kind of unexpected freak thunderstorm and rain quickly rolled in and drenched us. We couldn’t stop laughing at the bewilderment of this moment and for many years after it would come up in our conversations from time to time in one of those “Remember when you….” Funny kind of conversations filled with laughter between sisters.

Before social media where everything now lives in digital pictures and is over sexualized, over produced and over-consumed, when I was coming of age and coming into adulthood in real life, before people called me pretty, sexy came first. Way sooner and way more frequently. For my entire life, this has been a thing. This has always been a thing. I used to think it was because of my body and the way it was/is shaped. Or, some of my body parts. I think part of it was the way that I dressed and moved and carried myself. I do think that “sexy” is a feeling, too. And while many people might have had literal sex on their minds when identifying me as this, I’d like to think that they too were tapping into a feeling. Or the way they feel me as I feel myself as I am perceiving life and engaging with life, which I do with 100% passion and all of my senses above and way beyond my five.

Clairsentience is an actual psychic ability beyond emotion and for me to be told this and to know and understand what it was felt like I finally had language or a word for something I have always felt, but, otherwise, could never explain even to myself. Even when others just thought I was “sensitive” (and I can be that too in how most people mean it), I knew it was not simply just about that or how I felt what I felt, but also how I knew what I know; This is a different category altogether. I knew that I was not seeing what and how other people see or perceive. It’s just different. And yes, more refined.

Clairsentience means “Clear feeling” and it is literally how I see and perceive. And it happens instantly for me. I’ve even had nighttime dreams where a wise woman or teacher in a classroom was explaining this concept to me about me (me and one other woman who I did not know in that dream), but at the time I didn’t know how to interpret it, although, it turned out to be quite literal. That dream.

One of the principles of The Divine Feminine, my theme for this newsletter all this year, is Sensuality. Something many woman are afraid of in themselves, and many men don’t know what do with it.

Long before history and man (gender-less) reduced the Divine Feminine to a tool for physical consumption, her true power lay in her sensory mastery. Long ago and still today, we often confuse sensuality with mere sexuality, but true sensuality is born from a deeper place of perception. And it is inextricably linked to clairsentience.

Let’s have Cleopatra enter this chat as she is the representative for the Divine Feminine who I have chosen for this month of July to personify the principle and topic of sensuality… my topic for this month.

Clairsentience is internal perception, while sensuality is external projection and both words come from the Latin one sentire, which means to feel/perceive.

To be clairsentient is to perceive life way beyond the basic five senses and I know what this feels like because this has been my entire life experience. And when a woman possesses this deep-rooted energetic awareness, her outward expression naturally becomes deeply, magnetically sensual. She isn’t just presenting a body she is broadcasting an entire frequency of felt life. She is presenting a field of intelligence.

History has reduced Cleopatra to a weapon of sexuality, but her true power was in her absolute presence and sensory intelligence. First of all, she, a black woman, was the last active ruler of the Ptolemaic Kingdom and one of the most consequential political figures of the ancient world - Cleopatra VII ruled Egypt from 51 BCE until her death in 30 BCE. Second and third of all and all the rest… she was also a brilliant and skilled mathematician, she was a linguist who spoke nine languages, she was a philosopher, and she negotiated the survival of her kingdom through relationships with the two most powerful men of her era - Julius Caesar and Mark Antony. And she did not use her body as a performance for others… she understood it as a site of power, presence, and negotiation. (A sign of the times she lived in.)

The Western tradition has diminished Cleopatra almost entirely to her sexuality and to her death. But her sensuality was never separate from her intelligence it was an expression of it and her connection to Sensuality as a Divine Feminine principle is this:

In the feminine, sensuality is not about appearance or performance for others. It is about full inhabitation of the self.

Cleopatra was fully present in every room she entered. That is what sensuality actually is. Her legendary allure was actually the physical manifestation of her internal clairsentience – this gift of “clear feeling.” Before she ever spoke, her heightened intuitive radar allowed her to enter a room, read the energetic currents, and instantly perceive the hidden motives of the most powerful men in an ancient world.

This brings us to the true definition of the Divine Feminine principle of sensuality. Sensuality is not an invitation from us to others (or those who think they can invite themselves) to be consumed - it is a nature-made and strategic, outward expression of that internal clairsentient awareness. Cleopatra conquered empires because she used her “clear feeling” to intentionally shape her environment, command her atmosphere, and fully inhabit herself.

So when we think of Cleopatra the shift for me is: She wasn’t just a seductress using her body (sexuality). The reality is she was a master of energy, environment, and psychology who could read a room instantly (clairsentience) and project a magnetic presence (sensuality).

In that framework, sensuality is not just “liking pleasure”; it is the capacity to fully inhabit the senses and to experience life as a living, felt presence. This becomes a spiritual path: surrendering to sensation, rhythm and embodiment rather than staying stagnant, detached, and confined.

July, this month, is my birthday month and the steamy heat of the summer always makes me feel more sensual than any other month and season.

Summer is my favorite season and it’s not only because I was born in it, but because it feels to me that it is the only season where all of my outer senses are so fully and willingly engaged… and heightened… so eager to participate in life, full throttle.

Maybe it’s because the days are so long and we get to squeeze every last moment of sunshine and daylight out of it as we also get to watch some of the most gorgeous sunsets God has to offer. To me, it is absolutely the most sensual season.

When I think of the steamy heat and humidity of New York City, where I am from, summer dresses and skirts sometimes sticking against my skin, sometimes blowing if they happen to catch a breeze that offers a cool if only momentary moment of relief, the moist feeling of skins brushing and touching and hugging and laying, warm hands holding, and the glow and glisten of my own brown skin… it doesn’t get much better than this for me.

Hair like mine, curling and coiling wildly beautifully and even more-so than it already does, painted or bare toenails attached to heeled, flat sandled, flip flopped, or bare feet feeling the wet grass beneath them in any park, or sand on any beach, or in a body of water - some of my favorite places to be. The smell of sweet treats, roasted peanuts and various types of food from food vendors and restaurants whether I am walking through a city street or by a beach.

Summer makes me more excited than any other season to experience more of life and to enjoy all it has to offer with people, events, places, things or just quiet time with myself in solitude, or with someone I love. Or someones. Bright smiles and copious amounts of laughter and good music. ALL senses - 5 and infinite - fully engaged. Let’s go!

Happy rest of July. 💙

~ Suhailah 💫

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P.S.

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