Since You've Been Gone

Since you've been gone

I’ve become a woman

A grown up woman

ready to be a mother myself

A woman who cooks fertility rich coriander fennel encrusted salmon

and black sesame rice porridge for our future babies bones

Since you’ve been gone I've grown from the fertilizer of your death

that I’d trade any day to have you back

I've traveled across continents

I've dreamt about you

Dreamt about standing in the car port of 944 Garfield

walking through the back door

where Dixie used to howl

I've dreamt of you with your long golden locks pouring over your thin frame

I've cried oceans of tears without you here to laugh with me

Met the man I am ecstatic to marry

Opened my art show

Planted our first garden

Become a wellspring of nourishment

cooking for my loved ones the way you cooked for me

I've become more and more of you since you’ve been gone-

Your green thumbs are finally blooming through my hands

as I water the hearty tomato plants that I grew from seed

and sing to the tall marigold flowers ready for the late spring ground

I've grown into you,

A woman you would be proud to call your daughter

You’re invited to join me for an upcoming offering…

Teen Mindfulness Retreat July 10-13 three days of mindfulness cultivation and practice for youth 13-19

The Wild Heart Podcast with yours truly.. listen to our first episode with Mirabai Starr

Temple of Shakti Retreat Tantric Goddess vow ceremony Father’s Day weekend in Santa Fe, New Mexico with my dear friends Adriana Rizzolo and Tammy Chow

1:1 sessions with Willow to explore the inner life