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If you’re wondering what this is about - One year ago I crawled through a 5K in 50 minutes—now I’m attempting the slightly unhinged goal of running a sub-2-hour half marathon, documented through daily brain dumps complete with training chaos, 5 AM existential crises, random tangents, and way too much heart rate data. Disclaimer: Posts are lightly edited with LLMs for grammar and…
If you’re wondering what this is about - One year ago I crawled through a 5K in 50 minutes—now I’m attempting the slightly unhinged goal of running a sub-2-hour half marathon, documented through daily brain dumps complete with training chaos, 5 AM existential crises, random tangents, and way too much heart rate data. Disclaimer: Posts are lightly edited with LLMs for grammar and…
If you’re wondering what this is about - One year ago I crawled through a 5K in 50 minutes—now I’m attempting the slightly unhinged goal of running a sub-2-hour half marathon, documented through daily brain dumps complete with training chaos, 5 AM existential crises, random tangents, and way too much heart rate data. Disclaimer: Posts are lightly edited with LLMs for grammar and…
If you’re wondering what this is about - One year ago I crawled through a 5K in 50 minutes—now I’m attempting the slightly unhinged goal of running a sub-2-hour half marathon, documented through daily brain dumps complete with training chaos, 5 AM existential crises, random tangents, and way too much heart rate data. Disclaimer: Posts are lightly edited with LLMs for grammar and…
If you’re wondering what this is about - One year ago I crawled through a 5K in 50 minutes—now I’m attempting the slightly unhinged goal of running a sub-2-hour half marathon, documented through daily brain dumps complete with training chaos, 5 AM existential crises, random tangents, and way too much heart rate data. Disclaimer: Posts are lightly edited with LLMs for grammar and…
If you’re wondering what this is about - One year ago I crawled through a 5K in 50 minutes—now I’m attempting the slightly unhinged goal of running a sub-2-hour half marathon, documented through daily brain dumps complete with training chaos, 5 AM existential crises, random tangents, and way too much heart rate data. Disclaimer: Posts are lightly edited with LLMs for grammar and…
If you’re wondering what this is about - One year ago I crawled through a 5K in 50 minutes—now I’m attempting the slightly unhinged goal of running a sub-2-hour half marathon, documented through daily brain dumps complete with training chaos, 5 AM existential crises, random tangents, and way too much heart rate data. Disclaimer: Posts are lightly edited with LLMs for grammar and…
If you’re wondering what this is about - One year ago I crawled through a 5K in 50 minutes—now I’m attempting the slightly unhinged goal of running a sub-2-hour half marathon, documented through daily brain dumps complete with training chaos, 5 AM existential crises, random tangents, and way too much heart rate data. Disclaimer: Posts are lightly edited with LLMs for grammar and…
If you’re wondering what this is about - One year ago I crawled through a 5K in 50 minutes—now I’m attempting the slightly unhinged goal of running a sub-2-hour half marathon, documented through daily brain dumps complete with training chaos, 5 AM existential crises, random tangents, and way too much heart rate data. Sleep : 5h14m – Low RHR : 55 bpm HRV : 86 ms Workout : Row for 20…
A sub-2-hour half marathon. The goal feels audacious, almost impossible, when I say it out loud. It demands a relentless 5:40 min/km pace for 21.1 kilometers—a huge leap from where I am today. But that’s the goal I’ve set for the Bengaluru Marathon this September. Just a year ago, I was training for my first 5K at the TCS World 10K 2024 (Completed 5K in 50 minutes). Since then, I’ve run a few 5Ks,…
This blog is built with Hugo. To add images to blog posts, I previously committed them directly to git. This approach becomes painful over time and increases the repository size, eventually becoming a limiting factor. Last year, I solved this by adding a Node script that downloads all files mentioned in **/images.yml files. Each blog post that needs images should have an images.yml file: Chennai_2…
I am writing the first draft of this at 35,000 feet in the air, on my way back to Bangalore. I have not been able to write my notes for the last two weeks due to travel and a general lack of energy. I apologize for such a long wall of text - I didn’t have time to write a short one Week 04 Week 04 started well, but then I quickly slipped into a dark place with lots of confusion. Everything…
I woke at 4:30 am this morning, planning to run the Millet run at Cubbon Park. It started to rain suddenly. I went to Cubbon Park with a friend, and we waited until 7 am for the rain to stop. It didn’t. They flagged off the run, but we decided not to risk it due to health reasons. I enjoyed a small run in the dark at Cubbon Park, while my friend waited near the Cubbon Park metro. This week felt…
I am restarting weekly notes. Last year, I was able to write a few, but then I didn’t have enough structures in place to continue. I want to write more about my work, but I cannot write more because of contracts. Maybe, I should do one just for the internal audience or maybe just for myself. I worked from home for 3 days this week and worked from the office the rest. Back in December, I made the…
The new year is here, but there has been general sadness and human cruelty all over. It has been more than a year since the currently active genocide in Gaza started. If you ever read any dark period from the human history, and thought “How did they even let that happen?” this genocide answers it. We all are complicit. I have been away from writing my weekly notes. I didn’t think I had the energy…
It has been difficult to write my weekly notes. I think this is mainly because I am missing writing my daily notes. I will work on that this week. I have been consistently waking up around 5:30 am to 6:00 am every day, except on Sundays, for a month now. I have been consistently hitting the Box too. We are in the strength training cycle, and I have been enjoying the workouts. On days I don’t…
It has been almost 12 weeks since I wrote any updates. Initially, with the move into the new office and client projects, it was just too much to handle. Since May, Beneathatree has had a new office :D - We completed the move-in and handed over the old office to the landlord. The new office has been coming along great - we now have dedicated spaces for Makerspace and a darkroom. Srinidhi has been…
I was listening to Darknet Diaries' episode on ANOM . ANOM was a phone built with extreme privacy in mind and marketed as a phone for criminals, by the criminals. It was a fork of Graphene OS hardened with extreme security measures, including disabling GPS services at the OS level. The phone came with an end-to-end encrypted messaging app, touted for all its security features. Except - the E2E…
I missed updates for 2024W14 and 2024W15. I have been busy and hardly had any energy or time due to being busy. We were in the process of moving our office from Domlur to Koramangala. The first phase of that was completed this week, with all our software team moving to the new office and starting to work from here. I have been on the ground for the last two weeks along with some of my colleagues…
In his Weekly notes for Week 12, 2024 Thejesh writes how Weekly Notes has grown into a community, a social media of sorts, but this time it is deliberate, user-owned, and uses existing infrastructure and open protocols. Thej also linked to Dave Winer’s blogroll experiment. Dave too talks about how his Blogroll experiment can be used to bootstrap a new kind of social media. This is…
I am writing this on a late Monday night. Sunday, I was too tired to write anything down. I have been using logseq back again. I make some entries there every day and use that to write my notes here; otherwise, I usually find myself blurring through the days – if that even is a word. I stayed with my planned diet mostly, except on Sunday. I worked out 3 times a week. Work-wise, my struggle…
This is part of my homework for the Progress level Urdu Course . We were asked to type/write a few lines from our favorite poem/ghazal/song/qawwali. Instead of doing that in Google Docs, I decided to do that here. I didn’t have a favorite, and I was browsing Rektha for ideas and found this by Nida Fazli. What I liked about this ghazal was the sense of urban loneliness and longing which is…
“Writing does not come naturally to me.” I wrote this line and thought about it. That line has layers behind it, including my impostor syndrome arising from never having learned a language “properly” and instead just hacking my way through the system. My entitlement to wanting to be good at something right from the start without effort and the perceived shame of not…
I haven’t updated this blog since Week 7 of 2024. A lot has happened since. That’s how time works. I turned 29 last Sunday. I spent my birthday eve doing something I enjoy but hadn’t been able to do for a while: developing the roll of negatives I had previously shot. I should write about the process here someday. It is magical to see physics and chemistry come together to make…
I went back to the gym this Tuesday after not attending it for almost a month because of bouts of depression, work overload, and travel. I was back with some optimism and new energy, and then I fell ill. I caught a cold and was in bed most of Wednesday and Thursday. Friday, I completed the last few frames remaining in the Kodak DoubleXX roll by taking photos of my office and colleagues. I loaded…
I missed my updates for 2024W05 and was in two minds about writing this. In these two weeks, I visited my parents back in Belgaum and stayed with them for a week. I worked remotely. I can’t really remember much to write here. Days have been a blur. We are also moving into our new office soon - so there is a lot of excitement for that. After a long time, I felt a bit excited about the work…
I started writing the morning pages today. Julia Cameron describes Morning Pages as Morning Pages are three pages of longhand, stream-of-consciousness writing, done first thing in the morning. There is no wrong way to do Morning Pages – they are not high art. They are not even “writing.” They are about anything and everything that crosses your mind – and they are for your eyes only. Morning Pages…
This is yet another weekly update where I would complain that the week was difficult :) Started this week by attending a conference with my team on Monday. Work-wise, I have been way behind in my work and now I am a bit worried that it may have consequences this week. This week too, I worked from home. Thursday evening, I spent time with my team playing arcade games and go-karting in Loco Bear .…
I have been struggling to get myself to write here and also get a general grip on life. This week started out tough. I have been gloomy for a while, and it got much stronger starting this week. I tried writing about it in the hope that I could dissect it. I am currently only working on one client project. For the last several months, we have been working on migrating the processing pipeline to a…
Last week I developed the second roll of Eastman 5222. This time I shot and developed it at box speed, so less contrasty than the last time . I Developed it in D-96 for 5 minutes and 50 seconds, 10% lesser than the recommended 6.5 minutes. I also used this roll to test the Pentax K1000 camera and Pentax SMC 50mm 1.4 Prime lens. I like the feel and experience of using the K1000, but it is a bit…
Happy New year! I guess? I shot and developed my first roll of Eastman 5222, a film stock originally made for Motion picture last week. I may have done a boo-boo by pushing it by +3 stop especially with my lack of proper metering. I still like the look and feel of some of the images. You can find the images here SilverHalide/2023 W51-W52
This week Last week was crunch time; I had to work over the weekend because of a client demo. That spilled well into Tuesday this week. I have been sleeping well, but mostly going to bed by the morning - I don’t like this. Most of this week I barely did much and attended status meetings to follow up on tasks. Mostly low on energy and feeling gloomy again. Updated this blog on the 6th with a…
I have been missing here for the last several months (4 months to be exact). The last couple of months were difficult, to say the least. I have had a burnout looming since the start of this year. My productivity and will to do anything had dipped. I was not enjoying things I would usually enjoy, like making my own coffee or writing code and building things. Last year, I was also diagnosed with…
Confession of a New Atheist This morning, I am in urgent need of a God. It would be nice if I could order faith (that I have lost) over at https://amazon.in - same-day delivery guaranteed. I’m feeling helpless and hopeless. I can’t seem to tame myself or my flaws. I yearn to kneel before someone greater than myself and submit, hoping they will fix everything. I see and understand why…
Last Week(2023W30) This week was low on productivity, but I was able to get good sleep (more than 7 hours). Hopefully, this streak of good sleep continues. Duration of sleep each day When I am Going to bed and waking up I have restarted using ActivityWatch , but I forget to turn it on regularly, and I am still facing issues in getting it to work with systemd (or some other way to launch it on…
I missed adding notes for W26, W27, and W28 due to ongoing sleep issues and low productivity, which left me with little energy to gather my thoughts and write. Although I continue to log things in logseq, compiling and fixing the grammar consumes much of the energy I lack. W26, W27, W28 Weeks W26 to W28 were primarily focused on work with only a few noteworthy events: But here are things I would…
I first came across Interstitial Journaling from this post by Nesslabs a long time back. I used it for some time (few hours at most!). My ADHD makes it difficult for me to be aware of the passage of time when I am either in hyperfocus or procrastination mode. Additionally, not having a solid system to log it was bothering me. Where should I store this file? What would be the easiest way to give it…
Last Week (2023W25) My sleep continues to improve, but I have failed in my goal of waking up a bit earlier to have a calm day. I’m happy and proud that even on days when I worked late, I managed to get home and sleep instead of falling asleep at my desk chair - progress 🎉. This week was mostly dedicated to work. I had productive days for the most part, successfully completing tasks for both…
Last Week (2023W24) I have been sleeping more regularly, and have been sleeping on my bed rather than on a chair, I’ll call that progress. I have been going to bed by the early morning hours and waking up by 1500. I’m not particularly fond of this schedule because I have to rush through to make it to my calls on time in the evening. However, at least my sleep routine has become…
It has been approximately 2 months since I last wrote my weekly notes. Forming habits is weird with ADHD. I follow through for some time, and I really like it as well, but then life happens and I slip off. I remember that I am off track, but it gets also lost in the background noise of life. This also makes it difficult to start new habits because I end up mourning even before things go bad and…
Last Week (2023W14) I realized after publishing my last week’s note that I have completed one month of weekly notes. I am writing this on a Tuesday evening because on Sunday, I worked the whole day on a side project. The first half of last week was mostly productive, but also a bit of a struggle. I walked every day for the first half of the week for about 20 minutes, but I dropped it during…
Last Week (2023W13) April is here. I got pranked accidentally by this 4-year-old video by EEVblog. In this video, EEVblog claims that because FeCl3 is mixed with water in really minute quantities, it should be possible to etch PCB using it if we can concentrate it, and proceeds to use a magnet to concentrate the said FeCl3 from the running tap water. This did flare up my BS detector, but given it…
Last week (2023W12) I am writing this on a Monday morning, instead of Saturday or Sunday night. Last week I had some good progress in my work. I am working with my therapist to fix my sleep cycle and irregular food habits. Monday was very productive. I made good progress on the work front. Tuesday I spent a few hours reading through a lot of blogs. I added a lot of them into my feed reader. I want…
This week Nibling++ : My cousin, with whom I spent countless summer vacations growing up, is now a proud parent. It’s crazy how fast time flies and how life changes. Update on Tempus : Starting of this week, I spent some time working on Tempus. I changed the orientation to landscape and added code to display the keypad and identify key presses. However, I noticed that there were some issues…
This week Last Sunday Night, I had my Dinner at Salt Mango Tree with a friend. I Loved their Kreme Kerala and Malabar Biryani. It just soothes the soul. Kreme Kerala As someone with ADHD, I’ve always struggled with Time Agnosia , making it difficult to balance my work and personal life while maintaining good habits. To help combat this, I started working on a side project called Tempus this…
Estate Hidden Falls Estate Varietal S5B + S795 Roaster Blue Tokai Process Natural Location Shevaroy Hills, TN Roast Light Link Blue Tokai Recently, I tried Black Baza’s Whisky Barrel aged coffee and enjoyed its the taste and after note. However, due to various reasons, I didn’t drink coffee for a while. When I finally resumed my coffee consumption, I found the boozy notes to be…
I follow Thej’s weekly notes and wanted to write my own. I am not sure what would go here - but here is the first edition. Last year Last year I got diagnosed with ADHD. I had a hunch for sometime, but getting it officially diagnosed was helpful. Knowing about ADHD has helped me in understanding myself, mainly the fact that my behaviour and patterns are not a moral failure. I am trying to…
I had this Peace Lilly on my desk for a long time. I had even named her. Shanti. It took me some time to understand her. When is she thirsty? When she needs some sunshine? How much water does she drink? All the whole jazz. It took me some time to understand the visual clues. Drooping leaves usually means I have failed again and have not watered in time. It always makes me anxious and guilty to see…
It was very early in the morning when I went to bed yesterday. I decided to stay back in the office yesterday night. Waking up by noon, I went through some emails and then decided to make myself a cup of coffee before jumping into the day. Shashank has been bringing Bruce to the office regularly in the mornings, so Bruce gets familiarized with the office environment. I spent some time with…
Last week or two, I have been very unproductive. I was only doing enough to get by the immediate tasks. I have been very unfocused in general and procrastinating. And that, in turn, made me go on tangents with other stuff which were more interesting. Today I had a few deadlines to meet. It made me sit through the first part of the day working on the task. But I still was pretty unfocused for the…