Like there's a "y" on the end My name is Chris and I'm an artist writer and TTRPG Designer located in the Pacific Northwest. This blog is a place for me t...
There is a thing that lives in my house. It has been following me for most of my life, but it's been making it ’s presence known for the past few weeks. I know it 's there most of the time, just out of sight, waiting for the right moment. It doesn't ever attack me, it 's far too cruel for that. No, it whispers. Mostly small things. Reminders. It waits until the moment I forget about it and then it…
I'm a deeply angry person. Not that I have a temper or anything like that, quite the opposite actually. 1 No, it's more of a deeply ingrained anger at the world. I've come to find out it's described as an "autistic sense of justice". It's deep anger at my core about the way the world works and the injustices around us. I was also extremely emotionally repressed for a large part of my life. No…
Death is hard. A really controversial opinion, I know. It feels trite to even write that, because of course it's hard. Losing someone is one of the hardest things that anyone can go through. Even when it's expected, it can still hit you like a runaway train. We had known that my brother was dying for several years. He had a combo of terminal diseases that made sure it was a matter of when, not if.…
Like many, The Mountain Goats music (and John Darnielle's writing) means a lot to me, especially This Year. It helped me learn that I had it in me to keep going, to make it at least one more year. And if I can, imagine what we can do together. I discovered The Mountain Goats in early 2008. I had just come out of one of the worst periods in my life and, unknown to me, was about to go into another.…
A story from long ago and actually one of the things that got me into writing. It was originally written as part of a challenge from my partner to write some drabbles (stories that are exactly 100 words) to help me feel more comfortable with writing. I love working within parameters, the challenge helps me create. I still like this one. I should try and do some more... "Come out here!” he cried,…
A thing that anyone who has spent any time with me will be able to tell you: I pace. I pace when I think. I pace when I'm waiting for something. I pace when my ADHD meds are wearing off. I pace a lot. I know now about things like bilateral stimulation and how neurodivergent minds like mine process things, but for most of my life it was just one of those things that helped make me "eccentric". One…