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Is it against the spirit to just write 500 words? I think it would be against the spirit to write 500 of the same word. For example chicken, chicken, chicken, chicken and so on. I also think it would be against the spirit to write 500 words which were completely random. For example, phantasm, oak, under, behave and so on. But if the words form coherent sentences, and the sentences form coherent paragraphs, then I believe it must be allowed. Disappointing, yes, but not against the spirit.

I would like to have something to say, really. Something substantive and maybe even memorable. But the truth is I have been running out of things to say for at least a week now. Perhaps two.

I have made, as far as I can tell, an earnest effort. I have made multiple attempts to write poetry.

Attempt 1:

Words are like turds,

You should not step on them,

Attempt 2:

My name is Henry Bescelo, King of Kings;

Look on my Works, ye Mighty, and despair!”

I have experimented briefly with writing Harri Potter and the non-methods of post-rationality.

But I am dry. And so I really have no choice but to run down the clock. I don’t feel proud of this, I would have liked to go out with a bang. Another zinger about Henry and his love of bitches would have been nice.

I don’t think it’s right for me to apologise. I have sincerely tried. I don’t think you believe me when I say this but it’s true. It’s sad for everyone for it to end like this, most of all me. But that’s how it is.

The items on my desk include: 15 batteries, a white peach and raspberry vape, a prescription carton of dexamphetamine, a macbook, a shia le bouef mouse mat, a singing bowl, a mouse, a keyboard and monitor. The macbook is open to the ‘September trip’ chat in whatsapp, which is currently displaying a photo of my friend’s bottom. He is wearing shorts which are unreasonably tight.

I am wearing shoes. They are red.

I also don’t feel shame. Would it not be more insincere to write something substantial under the guise of intrinsic motivation? I think so.

Some of the batteries say ‘energizer max’ on them. Some other ones say ‘amazon basics’. There is also a third type of batter, which says ‘allmax’. These last kind are AA, whereas the first two kinds are AAA.

Wittgenstein once said something about a ladder. The basic idea was that you go up a ladder, and then you have to throw the ladder away. Wittgenstein is not from Lichtenstein, but ‘Wittgenstein’ does rhyme with ‘Lichtenstein’.

I worry that you will see this as an act of disrespect. This is not my intention, I have nothing but fondness and gratitude for you.

I have eaten four bags of crisps today, all of them jalapeno flavoured. I have also eaten one cheese sandwich and one crisp and cheese sandwich.