Zest, Curiosity, Joy & How I'm In Charge of the Flow

I’ve had more energy lately. Not the manic, ‘sign up for ten new hobbies and then immediately regret it’ type. That’s how my ADHD brain used to work and still would given half a chance. It’s just a steady, useful sort of energy. The kind that makes you look up and notice what’s going on, rather than ploughing through the day with your head down.

A very supportive reader commented that she loved my zest for life and it stopped me in my tracks and made me think.

And do you know what?

I thought, she’s right.

I’m aware I’ve been saying yes to more things like conversations, invites, detours. None of them have been life-changing, but that’s sort of the point. They’ve just been good. Good and wholesome in a ‘that was worth doing’ way.

Good in the ‘I’m glad I turned up’ way.

But I’ve also been saying no when that feels right, too.

Curiosity has been in the driving seat.

To be honest, I’ve never been short of curiosity.

I’m delighted curiosity continues to drive me. It’s a big part of my personality.

I’ve gone down rabbit holes about things I didn’t even know existed a couple of months ago. Some of it’s been fascinating, some of it’s been mildly pointless, but it’s rarely been boring.

I’ve realised that asking questions, even daft ones, is the quickest way to stumble across something interesting.

Joy has been showing up more, too.

Sometimes it’s obvious joy like belly laughing until I pee my pants, dancing in the kitchen, having a chat with the doggo while I drink my morning cuppa.

Sometimes it’s a quiet joy like a book that hooks me in so much I forget the time, a patch of sun to sit in again usually with the doggo, an unexpectedly early night with the thought of 10 hours before the alarm will go off.

Joy AND bliss! What a combination!

I think my EFT studies, both practical and theoretical, has had a lot to do with it. Not in a dramatic, ‘my life is transformed’ kind of way although honestly, quite close.

Even with all this zest, curiosity and moments of joy I still have off days and I still get grumpy or feel a bit off kilter but there’s been a definite shift in me.

Practising and learning EFT has made me a lot more aware of what’s going on in my head and I’m much quicker at clearing the static.

Which means I think I spot the good stuff more easily.

I’m controlling the flow.

And here’s the thing .. while I’m happily collecting small moments right now, I’m also quietly lining myself up for the big, cinematic ones. They’re percolating in the background, getting ready to make an entrance.

The work I’m doing on myself - EFT included - feels a bit like building a solid stage before the curtain goes up.

Gratitude’s there, too. I don’t keep a journal or anything. I’ve had one for 3 years sitting on my bedside table, blank as the day I bought it.

It’s about people, and work and the freedom to do what I want with my time.

I’m in control.

All of it gets a quiet nod.

Nothing flashy, just an ongoing ‘Yep, this is good. I’m feeling all the feels.’

For now, I’ll keep stacking the small moments and making space for the big ones.

Both matter.

And both make life feel worth paying attention to.

I’m intrigued to find out how curiosity and zest for life is showing up for you. Are you in charge of your Flow?