Music I've made as Ben Beltran including albums, EPs, and loose releases. While all of it is available here, you can also support me by buying my music @ bandcamp: https://myspace.bandcamp.com On Matodon: https://friendship.quest/@ruben
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Read 22 hours ago and current, but nothing has been published for 3 years.
If I can’t catch up will they let me stay behindIf I can’t go out will they come see if I’m still fineIf I get my habits 500 days in a rowMaybe I’d be the kind of person that doesn’t worry about being alone If I don’t work out will they say I had it comingIf I don’t respond will they say I guess he didn’t want itIf I cry one day too much will they say oh it’s not worth the troubleIf I opened up…
Hold me babyI don’t want to be alone no moreI don’t want to be this cold no moreOnly maybeIf you want to see a whole new worldIf you’re not afraid of taking flight no moreI’m here babyMy heart is always trying to find its way to youMy heart is always crying out without youMy heart is always trying to make its home with youMy heart is always singing out your name to find you Find me babyI don’t…
How can I beJust flawed enoughAll that I needPerfectly human I’m always going to be your dreamsI’m always going to be that goodI’m always going to be this badI’m always going to be your idolI’m always going to be your starsI’m always going to be too farI’m always going to make you cryI’m always going to be your past How can I keepJust the right balanceNever too roughNever too polished I’m always…
I want to see your showI want to see your showI want to see your showon cable TV I want to see your showI want to see your showI want to see your showon cable TV But I don’t have the cash for all the channelsBut I don’t have a friend with no tvNo I don’t have a job that pays a lot of moneyOh all I have's a lot of love to give I want to see your showI want to see your showI want to see your showon…
There’s a part of me that’s silentSo many times I hear: I understandThen there’s a distance that forms around usYou just can’t find the way to talk to meAnd oh... who could want a friend like this? I don’t need someone to save meNo one to watch the road aheadI’m much stronger than you make meAll I need’s some time to catch my breathI just want to feel normal around youI just want to feel normal…
Call me,Make up something you can show meSlowlySigns to let me know you know meWhollyI just wanna have you by my side thoHonest,Don’t know what to do about you,Hide it,Make it all about the full moonHowling I’m not the warrior kind no noI’m not the magic kind no noI’m a criminaltrying to have you want to make me home Catch meFind me,Make it happen while you love meKindlyLift me off my feet and…
You don’t have to sit up straightCause I won’t even ask what’s wrongI only have myself to blameI know, to you it’s just a game I won’t have nowhere to goIf I keep burning down my bedAnd I keep eating off my plateI know, it’s all about displayI know it’s all about displayI know it’s all about display How could I ever earn your trustIf when you run I can’t keep upI only have myself to playThese…
Everyone I know back home is fineEverybody knows the truth so we don't lieWe play, we kid, we see ourselves get byIt’s not for me, It’s not for me, it’s not for me I’m way more soft than I like to acceptYou always knew but let me have my wayYou’re way too strong to ever let me downYou’re way too strong to hide your need to cry it out Even if I fall down to my kneesEven if I hold myself…
And I don’t have the waysTo quiet down the nightAnd stretch the pavement to your placeIf time could take a dayI couldn't let it go to waste And still if we had agesI cannot see the dayWhere we would just run out of pagesAnd every moment knowsand asks me not to take it And I don’t have the daysTo settle down my verbsand have the courage to rephraseIf I would write it downI’d only make a mess And…
I’m not trying to cut a good path anymoreEvery time I do I’m just consumed in changing course to seeHow farI can goHow far I can go I’ve been known to try to find what’s best for meYet I’m a prodigy at shutting down the worried signs to stop I know you love to follow rivers through the woodsIf there’s an ocean waiting, I can’t give my word But I have nowhere else to goWhere else toNowhere else to…
I've ben awake since six AM and it's been terribleThe headaches here are friends and take away the day in phaseI've been away since when the wind last took my breath awayThe icy hint of past nights liquefies and softly fades I've been lying to all my friendsI've been lying to all your friendsI've been lying all to myselfAnd all I have to say is how it kept me safe I've been a joke since I first…
I’m still wrong for you, a friend that you can’t trustYou’re still a wreck of youth afraid of staying warmAnd you have grown to need uncertain worlds I’ll never dance for you, you’ll never let me talkWhile I’m a blend of yours, you’ll never know my plans Though months ago you’d know when I would floatYou’d notice when I’d notice when I’m gone And months ago I’d know where you would floatI’d notice…
I’d soon have lost this well worn moodThe faintest hope to say I’m cool But friends like you, Friends like you The charming tastes and warming viewsThat I have only kept so fewAre friends like youFriends like you I’m not going to solve the worries of the worldI’m not going to solve the worries of the worldI’m not going to solve the worries of the world What careless heights did I jump to?When did…
I have a favor if you see meTo stay as gentle as beforeI noticed right awayI know you’re disappointedBut I still tried to do my best I have a favor if you canThat you repeat the words you said before I disappearedI hear them every dayAnd said them at so many placesBut yours the only voice that cared And I don’t want you to believe in meAnd I won’t make you think I’ve changedAnd I have never been…
The water like anticipating brids are worseTheir waves shake out the dissappearing wordsThe streets that host your holographic ghosts aren't fairThe view from the fifth floor won't break the spell You cannot get away with making me waitWe can't get in the way of wonderWe cannot get away with setting me straightWe can't get off the way of love Love me by the monsoonLove like your sun and moonLeave…
Like the riverWho can't be climbedI can be hurtfulI can be calm Like the raindropOutside my windowEntirely made upEntirely mine It makes me slow to find my confidenceIt makes me go out of my mind Like the branchesBeyond the skylineI will be youthfulI will decline Like a hermitInside the cityMy words are earnestMy friend is pity The reason's still the same as yesterdayThe rhythms still just like…
I don’t want to leave the houseI don’t want to change my clothesI just want to lie in bedI just want the damn day off I don’t want to go to wasteI don’t want to speak aloneI just want to phone a friendI just want to phone a friend I don’t want to miss my rideI don’t want to miss my gateI’m all ready to take offI’m already swept away I don’t want to cover the distanceI don’t want to count the daysI…
Heaven, you don’t have to tell meI’m already gasping, reaching for your gatesHeaven, you don’t have to hide itI’m already falling straight into your arms Heaven, you just have to know itTake your time to find it, take your time to call me outHeaven, I know what you’re planningI don’t want to spoil it, I can wait it out And I’m on my way to find you out tonight I want you, I want you to flyI want…
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Now I'm going to play an albumAll about the falling leavesAbout all the parks in autumnWalking through the golden trees And from the slowest room to the fast hallI'll only play the ones that make you sing So you can shake, you can shake I'll turn it to elevenAnd I'll play it like it's fiveWhen everyone starts leavingWe will sing your favorite one We'll only sing the good ones good onesWe'll only…
Old sheets, ghostly through my windowCan't shake the thought of youCool and toweringMythic through the roof I've got miles to sing about youGot miles to hear from you Real, peaceful, lethalYou're soft like gentle fireYou're soft like gentle fire I don't want to goI didn't feel so funI don't want it to be so longBut if I knew that you would goSo cold, polite, and wildI don't want to goI don't want…
So I sat down here to think ofof all the choices that we madeof what I'll bring myself to saybefore the road takes you away I'll build myself againSo when you come back you can tellThat everything that's nice was in our starswas always ours I don't ever want to feel alone with you How much time has passedAnd we were still the sameAnd we are still jumping aroundAnd being different every day We have…
Here it comes, back down, momentaryHere it comes, polite and ordinaryLike an old friend, like a stormA forgotten childhood toyTakes me back, twists my insides, gives me hopeMakes me cry, makes me useless, gives me joyOh I can't control myself when you're aroundWon't you please, leave me alone There I go, outside, empty handedHeavy bags, confused, noisy canvasTrying hard to keep you outI am fine…
Are you awake?Are you still thinking about eternity?the human race?the little monster hiding down the street? Well it's still early if you want to take a run around the blockWell I'm still drowsy but I'll show you anywhere around the townWell it's still warm out if you want to stay in bed until it's darkWell I'm still shy but I don't mind if we go out and have some fun I was still wondering if I'd…
Oh I'll start a riotstart to write and buy a little timeOh i'll start to rotif I don't start to find another star I'm melting downI'm screaming every night I'm going madI'm always hotI'm getting tired of the yearlong summer need another hobby keep my fears a little foggy and awayBecause trying to keep the dream alive is just a lost campaign Oh I'll clean the houseand feed the cat and get a little…
What stars have had to dieTo make the light that blinds my eyesNow all I see is your face like silver flowersWhat dreams did I wake from, did I forgetSo you could make this haze so realyour pastel manner shakes me I'm still dosed from hearing youI'm still lost daydreamingThis stage ghosts in front of meTowering to the ceilingProfound and awake What monsters do I killTo put my psyche in a place…
Underwater you swam with meI saw the ripples of your butterfly kickIn the seabed I drew your faceYou drew conclusions I'm not proud of Underwater I drowned with youA breathless foolA reckless blushingUnderwater my eyes saw blueThe fades of you that danced like magic How I wanted to wish for youYour brightness and your smileHow I wanted to find somewhere coldHow I wanted you to be aloneTo be away…
I wasn't paying attention drifting on your acid tongueYou have terrific tension, rosy jelly through my bones If I drink one more word I'll be too drunkSave your last move for when we're back insideOh I can't lie, you're outof this world You made your intervention, now my heart has gone too slow I don't love this direction but I really want to go I don't know who I think you are be cooldon't make a…
I remember days back homeby when the beating heat had gonewhere we lay calmly under pillow fortsand watched reruns or hit on the controlsthe hours lasted years, some centuries ago When we rushed the days like accidentsAround you I was at my bestI never had the precedentsNo seconds lost to hesitating doubtAnd now each step gets closer to hysteria So what if I still hold on to usSo what if I'm still…
Yes I'm ableWho am I trying to impress this time when I sayI'm so faithful, it's all that I needed to stay I believe in, whatI believe in anyone that holds me backI believe that this is all that I needed to say Everything's taken awayNow all I need is some faith So I wantedEvery person wants something their own wayI'm so blameless what did I give you to sting I forgot about, whoI forgot you had…
