Shoulding myself - present

I really should keep a running journal. It would be just nice to have all of my runs in one place so I can see all of my progress and keep myself going; I really should but I don’t, I don't, I don’t.

I keep thinking how I should do it, but I still don't do it. How frustrating.

I really should try harder to read books. It is the best and the most relaxing to tuck myself into a corner of a couch with a book in hand for hours. I miss it. I really should do it but I don’t, I don’t, I don’t.

I keep thinking I should, but I don't. How annoying.

I really should organize my passwords somehow, somewhere - have them all in one place so I can find them instead of receting them endlessly. It would be so nice, and way easier I know, but I don't, I don’t, I don’t.

I should also wash my hair more often, and call people daily, and for God sake, I really should bring more food to work!

I really should do all these things - BUT I DON’T.

Because the word should makes me feel bad instantly that I already don’t do the thing. It is not a motivator but a detour - it takes us away from doing and the only way to get back to where we want to go, if we really do want to go there and are not just lying to ourselves (don’t really want my hair more then this 🤷‍♀️) is to cut the should out. DO the thing. Just Do.

Run. Bake. Paint. Read. Call people!

Gash darn it. Do the thing.