personal writings, practicing self-transformation and openness
Playing with a fresh take at all levels. My definitions of purpose/essence from big to small zooming in through the fractal scopes. Defining the good, the more beautiful world, the wiser weller world: We seek a world where more humans grow to be who they want to be, in
There's something about sincerity that's floating nearby for me - connected to declaring intentions, which is then connected to invitations and leadership. Or maybe it's better phrased as faith? Except not faith in outcomes. In the face of the "maybe everything will fall apart&
Continuing exploration of the shapes that want to exist. The "intentional way of unfolding life and love" is the ideal that finds its expression in inner, relational, and outer work. (outer, toward "intentional world" vs "intentional way"?) It's bigger than any brand
Continuing directly onward from understanding sourceship . No editing, raw thoughts. In order to give that post a name, I looked over what I'd written. Reflecting on that emergent name, it's evident that I'm trying to understand my portfolio of source roles, where am I
Dec 27 - the in-between time, the day after the day-after and before later activities. Free-write, stream-of-consciousness, minimal edits. Putting things into words, there's a fear, an anticipation of inevitable letdown, from choosing specific word strings to gesture at the beauty of the non-
<meta: The doing is pretty much done for the year. The kids are done with school. Final Practice Dojo of 2024 a week ago Saturday, final 2R on Tuesday, LUME holiday party on Thursday, final IV on Friday, final IS Community Call today. Not 100% prepped for Christmas morning
'Tis the season. I'm sitting next to a Christmas tree covered in lights and ornaments. Hand-made and photo ornaments accumulate slowly over the years, small differences framing the familiarity of this tradition, this talisman of love and gratitude. In a related way, 'tis also the
Hello Monday, silence, opportunity of time. Hello awareness, choice, sensing, passion without fixation. What wants to be heard, expressed, fulfilled? What is mine to do today? What role at all scales will I play? What voice to wear here, even? Selecting words forces a style, a vector of expression that
This is a meta post to bring me back into contact with this workflow, this writing editor, and activate the sense of muscle memory that comes from stepping back into this space, this site, the intersection of public and personal. It's like a greenhouse — walking through a
Integrating, maybe I'll go with that word. There's a dimensional quality now, that of the degree of integration of my mental landscape...
<warning: the following is entirely self-referential navel-gazing fluff... at first, then looks at the dark side of the big picture> Sometimes I think about typing here, exploring something out in the open, and I shy away because of some concept of... wanting it to be high-
This post hearkens back to my feelings about the dishwasher over a year ago. Today I spent 6 to 7 hours of effort across 12 hours of wall-clock time trying to get my desktop PC to update its Win10 after being stuck for two years despite-or-because of
This is just to say I have deleted the drafts that were in the icebox and which probably had some good stuff that could have been written at one point Forgive me they lost their aliveness so stale and so old
Hello to myself, writing from the middle of an Intentional Society session. I've just sent the boats out to sea, and we happen to have no day-trippers around other than myself so, this is what wants to flow for me. Doing a Complice review last night, I
That's what my daily tasklist says currently - "consider blogging." Not to demand that I write, but to think about it in the context of setting my intentions for the day. I've found myself thinking, almost imagining myself writing in a variety of moments lately.