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Instructions before visiting Earth

In the event that you wake up and find your soul separated from source and manifest into material form, don’t panic. Your condition is only temporary. You have been selected for the opportunity of human incarnation. This 3D simulation is designed to break up the monotony of eternity by giving you a fully immersive experience as a distinct ego identity. Your body will serve as your physical avatar…

Letting go of what you fear

The fear of being loved Something that weighs heavy in the chest and strong in the head I feared that I could not be loved for who I am That if I stopped being light, strong or dependable then I will matter less If I stopped achieving or giving then I may become optional instead of chosen Always feeling as though I was failing in my role Partner, sister, daughter, friend Afraid of being left alone…

CURRICULUM VITAE

Curriculum Vitae Dave Young | North Lanarkshire, Scotland Candidate for the Role of Significant Other Personal Statement An emotionally intelligent, creatively driven, and genuinely warm human being with two decades of relationship experience, hard-won self-awareness, and an appetite for life that most people half his age couldn't match. Equally at home discussing the philosophical implications of…

Misgivings

"Perhaps you'll tire of me," muses my love, although she's like a great city to me, or a park that finds new ways to wear each flounce of light and investiture of weather. Soil doesn't tire of rain, I think, but I know what she fears: plans warp, planes explode, topsoil gets peeled away by floods. And worse than what we can't control is what we could; those drab scuttled marriages we shed so…

The 36 Questions

In 1997, psychologist Arthur Aron of Stony Brook University designed an experiment to see if two strangers could be made to feel close to each other in under an hour. The result was a set of 36 questions, divided into three sets, that become progressively more personal and vulnerable as you go. The idea is simple: mutual vulnerability builds closeness. By gradually escalating the depth of what you…

Tipping Over

Everything I have a head filled with memories, sensations, impressions. The faint scent of you still caught in my beard, even now. I have to take care of this, or I won't sleep tonight. I told you I'd give you every detail. So here is everything. I'm lying on my bed. The house is quiet and dark. My fingertips graze in lazy circles, all over my cock, rolling the tip between my fingers, thinking of…

After Making Love We Hear Footsteps

For I can snore like a bullhorn or play loud music or sit up talking with any reasonably sober Irishman and Fergus will only sink deeper into his dreamless sleep, which goes by all in one flash, but let there be that heavy breathing or a stifled come-cry anywhere in the house and he will wrench himself awake and make for it on the run—as now, we lie together, after making love, quiet, touching…

Naming Needs

"She may have learned early that emotional need was something to manage rather than express freely. The individuation task here is learning to need without feeling diminished by needing." You learned early that need was something to carry quietly. And you carried it so well that eventually the silence stopped feeling like a choice and started feeling like you. But the strength you built was never…

Love at First Sight

Love at First Sight Wisława Szymborska They’re both convinced that a sudden passion joined them. Such certainty is beautiful, but uncertainty is more beautiful still. Since they’d never met before, they’re sure that there’d been nothing between them. But what’s the word from the streets, staircases, hallways— perhaps they’ve passed by each other a million times? I want to ask them if they don’t…

In Our Stars

🌑 NATAL READING — L Birth details redacted. With Jungian Commentary ⬆️ THE ASCENDANT — THE PERSONA ~10° Scorpio Rising This is the mask Jung called the Persona — the face you learned to show the world. Hers is Scorpio. Before L says a single word in a room, people feel her. There is a quality of stillness and perception about her that reads as intensity — she misses nothing, forgets nothing, and…