2025: Year In Review

This year has been something of a whirlwind for me. One minute I’m working at Target struggling to get 25 pallets cleared on my own because I’m having to do three different departments at once: be a cashier, work guest service (customer service), run order pickups (basically grab the items for people that order their stuff online. Order pickups were timed which made me panic and the ship from store which went to people for delivery wasn’t time but still stressful.) Constantly didn’t get much help from my leaders until I had a meltdown or was basically begging for help.

I put myself back in college last year after not having success finding a job in IT. Hell, I wasn’t having luck just trying to find a data entry job so I could work from home. My home life sucked as I lived with a narcissistic mother who made my life a living hell. Got so bad I didn’t have energy to really do anything just do homework and work on Pagan Path and this blog.

By March 17th I had enough of it. I moved out with a few things, quit my job. Decided that I would try to be a freelancer and still write both blogs. By the 31st of March I decided that I’d go to Denver, Colorado to be closer to my long distance boyfriend of almost a year. Thinking that it would be better there to get a job.

Didn’t have much luck in all honesty. Even freelancing was hard because I wasn’t making enough and was struggling to make ends meet. But it was fine, I got my first subscribing and even tried my hand at being a vtuber as well. Was staying in hotels throughout Denver because while I saw my boyfriend at least twice, he didn’t make any effort to really help me much. Nothing really changed in our relationship. I mean hell I should have known something when I almost put down for an apartment that he wasn’t willing to be a co-signer and didn’t offer.

Things really went downhill when he dumped me near the end of July, the next day I went homeless having ran out of money and I just started to give up. Spent two days on the literal streets on Denver. Got help not from anyone but a few druggies and managed to get into an overnight shelter for women. Managed to keep up with my homework for college until my laptop broke, spent my birthday in a woman’s shelter.

Made some friends and started to rebuild the parts of myself that I had lost. Had a new boyfriend for a few weeks though it felt that things were going too fast and didn’t felt respected until I met my current one. Which to say when he laid eyes on me it was love at first sight. When I saw him it was “okay whose this guy?” The more we talked and got to know each other I started to fall for him even though I was in a relationship.

I dumped my boyfriend and we started dating. We both got tired of the chaos of the shelters in Denver and decided to move to San Diego on a whim, thinking that we’d have better resources to getting back on our feet. Even though he had been homeless for seven years and gave up on hope, and me well…even on my worst days I’m too stubborn to say die. We missed our bus stop and ended up getting off at the wrong stop. I had to sell my Switch, my games so we had money to make our way to where we were supposed to be going. Though we got separted for a few hours and both of us freaked out. We later found each other and realized we can’t be separated.

We’ve had a few setbacks in the past few months. Lot of fights but it’s made us stronger. He’s honestly been my rock when it comes to keeping up with not only this blog, but my writing in general. And been super supportive of me going back into vtubing, and even drawing more. Just as supportive as my grandmother was. Not to mention that I re-connected with my estranged aunt, uncle, cousin and grandmother. Reconnected with an old high school friend.

Hell, anytime I tell him of how my articles are being shared by people and commented and even viewed, his face just lights up. Never had someone cheer me that hard. And I got picked up by an Australian publication called the Phrasemaker so I’ll soon be writing stuff for them.

Couple things that I think will happen. We want to get a vehicle so that way we can go eastward probably towards Kentucky to stay with his close friends for a bit. Probably visit my estranged relatives for the first time in years and visit my friends in Texas.

I’m definitely going to dedicate more time to writing my fictional novel and write about my experiences being homeless, and his. And other peoples stories too. And likely return to vtubing and streaming the video games I love and also wrestling too.

I’m hoping that 2026 is a good year. One where I can finally heal and feel more like I’m supposed to.