SURRENDER

the truth is I am in the middle…the middle of a life shift…a proper breakdown…in between tragedy and piecing my self back together…I’m stuck in the “in between” these days….processing loss is not something I fully understand…embracing what’s next is equally perplexing…I know this is loaded and vague…I am just not ready to share in more detail yet…my life blew up & I am collecting the pieces of me while not able to comprehend what anything means…I imagine I will find the peace and the courage to talk in more detail as time continues to help me gain perspective…

I think my love for celebrating beauty, comes from a deep resonating with how messy and hard lots of things in life are…I seek beauty because I need beauty…not in a superficial way but more in a glass is half full way…that if I seek magic & try to capture something that feels gentle or intimate or beautiful, that it is somehow a small contribution to the universe…evidence that I believe there is more than pain and uncertainty, doubt and confusion…so I continue…even when lately I am almost always sometimes lost…really lost…I find a small peace in creating…it is like a perfect little bandaid for everything I don’t know how to heal…I surrender….

so I am here…sharing more real and raw, not just behind the scenes of the work I create (& there will be some of that) but also behind the scenes of my experiences and the emotional complexities of being an artist, a self employed entrepreneur, a creator, a dreamer, a mother, a sister, a hopeful woman caught amidst the most unnatural disaster, holding on to a very thin beautiful thread…

this is me, my perspective, my struggles, my creative process….

this is ARTISTIC LICENSE….