the clearout continues
so i got the job lmao. it was basically guaranteed but i was still afraid i wouldn't get it somehow. so, win!
i didn't tell anyone except my one friend that i was having my interview, and a colleague cuz it was relevant since it was during work time. i wasn't even worried about it really, until the day of. but i guess i was anxious really cuz i literally purposely didn't mention it. it's like. sometimes i really just don't want people to tell me it's gonna be okay? like it makes it into a Thing and i didn't want it to be a thing.
it was horrible though cuz it was in literally the last half-hour of my shift so i had to just be anxious all day lmao. on top of all the customer stuff i was doing. i felt queasy all day and it was a bit impossible to get anything done that required concentration. apparently they thought i did really well in my interview though. despite all the forgetting what the hell i was saying. i try to be kind to myself and im kind to other people about this kind of thing, and they were being very kind to me about it. but it's so embarrassing.
i was gonna go help my sister strip some wallpaper in her house today but she couldn't find the steamer thingy and she's a bit under the weather. still, i was geared up to do something so i decided to continue clearing out the big cupboard. i just took a break to eat lunch and i'm here for a bit so i don't get indigestion lol.
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