I've been talking quite a bit about priorities in therapy. To me, it feels as though there's never enough time in the day to do the things I want to do. This isn't a novel thought, but it does cause me a large amount of grief around being unable to be everywhere, do everything, support everyone at once. Being forced to choose between one friend or another, or instinctively choosing my family over…
I built a NAS as a 30th birthday present to myself. I tossed unRAID on it, and started learning more about how it works. Almost immediately I became hyperfixated on making it the "best" it could be. Installing everything I could think of. Planning out what I needed to make the system as robust and resilient as I could: New drives to replace the 9yr POH (power on hours, they're incredibly old)…
Today didn't feel that great for me in terms of productivity. I had a lot of "work" to do, but nothing really productive to show for it. Sure, I have a bunch of tasks with a checkmark next to their line in TickTick now, but that's not helpful when most of those tasks are some derivation of "respond to X with Y" or "message Z about A" or "create ticket B for C." It's not all that fun. What's worse,…
SFP is a form-factor that seems to have taken over the networking space when talking about gigabits per second transfer rates. Working where I do, I interact with these devices constantly, but rarely do I get enough information to effectively complete a task the first time. Given the fact that I've only been here for 2 months, that's to be expected, but I wanted to recount what occurred to me just…
ADHD is a condition that is made worse, immensely so, by shame. Mistakes I make as a result of my impulsiveness are the most shameful I've made. It's so hard for me to admit to myself, before I even admit it to others, that I made a silly choice on impulse. So hard, in fact, that very often I block it out of my mind until after a confrontation about the mistake or choice has been had. Very often,…
Fatherhood I've recently noticed that a substantial quantity of my negative thought patterns have changed rather significantly. This is despite a drastic increase in my work stress. I don't believe any choice or life change is a silver bullet for "fixing" your internal world, but I do think that the self-discovery and self-improvement I did prior to having my daughter[^1] has tangibly changed my…
Decentralization A story I've been fascinated by the internet since I was a small child using my uncle's old ThinkPad, when I ruined the Windows installation by installing 400 different cursors[^1]. Slowly, as I grew up, I watched the internet change from a place where anything was possible to a place where such an idea seems quaint and unlikely. This process seemingly happened all at once, but I…