Space for thoughts/ramblings mostly for myself kinda like an online journal.\ I have tried journaling often, but was somehow never able to stick to it for l...
I have to get up early tomorrow morning, so i know i need to go to bed early today. However at the same time that knot of anxiety in my stomach is getting worse making me think of all the things i have wanted to do for months now(all hobby and free time related). I am anxious about not having the time to watch 1 out of 30 movies i wanted to (re-)watch already. Or the switch games i have collected…
I have been struggling with anxiety for most of my life, at least i think so. But only during university the anxiety got worse. The worst part about the kind of anxiety i feel is that it is so unshaped. And it is always about something in the future. Right now the anxiety jumps at a meeting i have on Tuesday morning, so two days from now. The meeting itself does not matter. Objectively i know that…
I realized a few days ago, that over the last few weeks my youtube usage on the phone and PC got a bit out of hand again. So I looked into how I can reduce my youtube time and with that my screentime further. I mentioned before that it is possible to deactivate the youtube history. So I went through my subscibed channels and realized that a lot of them were podcast channels or similar to podcasts.…
I have realized over the last few months that my shopping behavior online has taken a concerning turn sometime during the last few years. I have seen videos talking about this over the years, about how people buy stuff for the sake of buying itself instead of for whatever they order. And I have noticed this in my own behavior to a degree. As an example earlier today I saw a thumbnail on youtube…
I have read a lot of posts and seen a lot of videos about reducing screentime. But I just wanted to write down what is currently working for me even though I still have a long way to go when it comes to my phone screentime. First, Youtube. I am on of those people saying "I don't use social media except youtube that's different". While that may be true, it does not help that I spent hours every day…
Many job listings I have seen for the IT sector mentioned the possibility of home office as a perk. However, that would not change my life at all right now. I want or more probably need a reason to leave the house regularly. Right now I am not. I leave my house 2-3 times a week to walk to the supermarket for groceries. And irregularly I go for a simple walk maybe once a week right now even though…
So at the beginning of october my work contract expired (research assistant at an university). So for about a month I have been unemployed. I have my master's degree in computer science, so finding a job will probably not be difficult (I hope). However, the thought of just going back into some software development job (the last year of my job was basically only about working on an open-source…
Hi, first time I did anything like this blog. Never posted on any social media (back when I had some accounts). Tried journaling often, but was somehow never able to stick to it when trying to write on paper. Then, some time this year after using AI in my programming work (stuff like autocompletion and suggestions for code snippets), I started writing my thoughts into the AI. This turned into some…