i'm being eclipsed

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I never sent a newsletter last week because I couldn’t figure out how to say what I wanted to say.

The short version is: It’s eclipse season, take note. The long version is: Tomorrow, we have a new moon solar eclipse at exactly the same degree as my sun, 20 degrees of Leo, set to happen one day before my birthday, and I have been in it. I’m serving existential crisis lately! And for that reason I feel like I can’t say much of anything until I know the fullness of what this eclipse wants to tell me, and I won’t until at least August 12.

What I do know is that eclipse season is always energetically intense. Historically, for me, eclipses have been hinge points in my life: breakups, job changes, therapeutic breakthroughs, the start of important new relationships, new visions for my life. And what I also know is that these things didn’t come from me, but rather through me, and that’s what eclipse season is about: Eclipse season isn’t for manifesting; it’s about being open. It teaches us to pay attention to what life is asking of us, or offering to us, or creating through us.

This particular eclipse in Leo is happening at the south node of the moon, a place where we shed old skins. It asks us to put our egos in check. It wants us to think about where and how we lead, how and why we dim our light, if the stories we’re telling about ourselves and other people and God are true.

You’re likely feeling this already. We entered eclipse season when we had the full moon in Aquarius nearly two weeks ago. Since then, I feel myself rearranging. Maybe you do, too.

And I know it’s easy, in such an energetically charged moment, to be scared. This fear of eclipses is an ancient feeling — imagine the sun going out in the middle of the day with no explanation. Freaky!

But ultimately, in my life, I have a lot of evidence that eclipses are exciting, curious, special portals, and my only advice is to ride the wave. Cry when you need to cry, write when you need to write, sleep when you need to sleep, move when you need to move. You can also use a prayer I employ a lot which is Please let me learn my lessons in gentle ways. I like that one.

Our next eclipse — the other end of this portal — is the full moon in Pisces on August 28. We’ll see what’s on the other side!

OK! For now, I’m going to leave it there. Keep me updated. Good luck. I love you all!

XO,
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