how much of reality is just the story you're attuned to

1 am.

50 mg of nicotine burning in my gums.

an espresso standing beside me.

“far away” by A$AP Rocky on low volume playing in the background.

my mind is filled with thoughts. yet all i can see is my laptop screen burning in my eyes.

life just doesn’t feel real. one day you’ll be experiencing life at its fullest.

the next day, life somehow feels miserable.

i can’t name this feeling.

maybe it’s just self hatred. but nevertheless, at the end of the day, life is just one big illusion created by the mind.

i’m experiencing it myself no matter how hard i try to escape life. reality somehow always comes back.

like a boomerang nothing more and nothing less.

and it’s weird talking about my life.

my life was built on traumas. i’ve been mentally broken. i’ve been broke. yet there’s always this voice in the back of my mind pushing for more.

going back a year. i’m remembering it like it’s been yesterday.

it was a warm august. my airpods on noise cancelling.

my phone in my hand. just walking through the streetes listening to audio books. over and over again.

and there’s always this one book that keeps crossing my mind.

reality transurfing.

there’s this one chapter that i can’t get out of my mind. it lives rent free in my head.

chapter one “the alternative space”

every theory represents a separate aspect of the phenomenon of a multiface reality.

the reality which can’t be described in the limited ideas that our minds can comprehend.

every single point in space contains its own version of a given event.

the greater the distance between the sectors, the more the script and scenery will differ.

waves of thought energy find the sector in the alternative space that corresponds in quality.

the alternative to that sector is then made manifest on the physical level, marking the process of how consciousness creates reality.

life doesn’t magically become better.

neither do your thoughts suddenly become positive.

it just comes down to the script that you’ve attuned to.

for example.

it’s 1:30am right now. i could’ve been in bed but there’s this voice in the back of my mind simply telling me… “you’re nowhere near where you want to be, work has to be put in.”

and it’s weird how everything simply aligns to a script we subconsciously choose.

before we go even deeper… let’s just break down the alternative space for a moment.

information concerning all possible points along the path of moving matter is stored in an information field which we refer to as the alternative space.

this field contains information about everything that has ever been, is, and ever will be.

it is an infinite field containing information on all possible scenarios of any event that could ever possibly take place.

for a moment… imagine a person walking through a dark forest with a torch.

in the dark, the person holding the torch lights up a small area around themselves.

the entire forest is like the alternative space, while the area which is lit up is like the physical manifestation of the alternative space in that area.

the question that remains as to what provides the light…

it all links back to the mind.

think constantly small and small will follow.

think constantly big and big will follow.

so how do you choose the reality you’re dreaming of?

if you take anything out of this… remember, it is not worth trying to change the script.

it is far more effective to choose a different alternative more to your liking.

as arrogant as it sounds but you simply choose the reality you want to experience.

to battle with the world around you in the hope of changing your fate is a difficult and thankless task.

does reality really link back to us?

it definitely does and it’s your duty to change it.

that’s how much of reality is just the story you’re attuned to

stay schemin.

escape, a85.

you’ve got the morning routine, the vision, the “I’m working on myself” said in a tone that closes the conversation.

i see it. i’m not mocking it.

i’m pointing out that it’s not where you live.

where you live: you already know exactly what you want. you’ve described it to yourself at 2am more times than you’d admit. you haven’t moved not from disbelief, but because getting it means becoming someone your current circle won’t fully recognise.

so you keep refining the picture instead of taking the step. a picture can’t reject you. a decision can.

that’s the room you’ve been standing in. this is the door out of it.

i urge you to click this link.