Awakening to him (NSFW/BDSM)

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I laid myself down slowly tonight
divine
feminine
Flushed and sultry in the heat
behind a veil
Blushing and smooth
A glow of softness
teasing, tempting
Only a sliver of me can be seen
a dare behind the clouds
behind my desire
I invited him into my sky
to show off his strength
his lightning
To perform for me a mating dance
My lover the electrician
Laughing and playful
at first

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Then the storm rose over the horizon
under the shroud of night
first crawling
then up on one knee
then rising
towering over me
covering all I see
all I am
What did you think it meant
it asked
gently
when you said I was a god
when you saw it in my eyes
when you saw it in my soul
the divine masculine
What did that mean to you
it asked
softly
I don’t think you truly understand
your own words
it said
quietly
You’re here because I
want you
here
it said
But I invited you
I foolishly declared
Then I felt it
To my depths
to my core
The power
the purest energy
the sheer might
It flooded the sky
It swept away the veil
with a slow breath
a loving warning
It found me naked
willing wanting waiting
Calm and ready
I took the hand it offered
It spread
through me inside me around me over me
Taking me enveloping me
Heavy its weight
The air electric
I am the divine masculine
it said
as it asked me
to my knees
as it pushed me
to my knees
as it brought me
to my knees
as it grabbed the back of my head
first gently
then firmly
and took its pleasure
from my mouth
I am the divine masculine
it said
as it held me there
as it emptied itself
its essence
into my throat
I am the divine masculine
it said
as it split me so delicately so softly
with feather light touch
of wind and spark
touching here
and here again
lifting me
taking me higher
I am the divine masculine
it said
as it sliced me open
cleanly, carefully
expertly
with an ancient blade of folded steel
forged over eons
delicate as a whisper
caressing
my molten core
until I myself am folded
into something
unbreakable
I am the divine masculine
it said
as it probed me
insistently, knowingly
with fingers of iron
encased in velvet
pressing
stroking
making lightning arc across my sky
flashing blinding
consuming the very air
Until I could no longer draw breath
The rain began
I am the divine masculine
it said
as it pulled me closer
pushed into me
pounded me mercilessly
twisted me held me
opened me
entered me again
with inscrutable gaze
and undeniable dominance

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You’re here because I
want you
here
it said
But I invited you
I pleaded
weeping
gasping
longing
opening
Yes
it said
And I am here
it said
I am the divine masculine
it said
as it drew me into the vortex
through the eyes
of the storm
Thunder it brought
deep and low
vibrating pulsing resonating
shaking my walls
my very foundation
until I succumbed to its rhythm
Wind it brought
rocking me violently
taking me again and again
until finally,
on my hands and knees
sweat dripping
hair hanging
in matted tangles
body sticky and raw and opened
Tears pouring
from eyes nose mouth
Tears of obeisance
Tears of reckoning
Tears of gratitude
Tears of respect
and understanding
I see now
He is as powerful as I
Not my subordinate
any more than I am his
But yet we are both
servant and master
giver and taker
mine and yours
the beginning and the end
the everything
the nothing
I belong to him utterly
and he to me
We will take each other
night into day
storm into clearing
until the rain washes us clean
revealing our spirits
spirals of stars
liquid fire
pure energy
He holds me close to him
to his chest
to his heart
in the embrace
of a lover brother father son
all that is divine
You have done well
he says
He lifts my hair from my face
He wipes my tears
Cups my chin in his hand
Now, you see
he says
He grants me permission to rest
but first I offer a prayer
to him
On my knees before his grandeur
With awe
with worship
A thank you
for
the privilege
of seeing at last
the honor
of being of service
I lie bare to the universe
feeling
safe
feeling
peaceful
feeling
vast
and yet
infinitesimal
Surrendering
You will wait for me
he said
I lie open
awaiting his need
Call for me again
please
I whisper into the dawn
I haven’t even started
he said
I rise open